Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Fun.

Here are some lovely "blips" from some dear friends that I've gotten in the last week or so. It's so fun for our hearts to hear these kind words!

from my sweet Lauren, who I met through the CSPD Wives Association:
"I know it will be a wonderful day for you~of that we are all certain! I will miss not being there on the most important day of your NEW life with Mike. I'm so happy for you. Your contentment and love for that man shines through in your eyes. Literally right from your soul. Love you, Jen. Blessings all around!"

from dear heart Sarah (who knew both Mike and I in high school, we used to write long letters back and forth in class lamenting about the loves of our life!):
"Hey Love! How are you?!?! The big day is coming soon!!! Just wanted to write you a little note and let you know that I AM THE WORST RSVPer IN THE WORLD! I am leaving for New York on the 6th and come back on the 11th so I won't be here for the wedding. :( Totally bummed about that because THIS is the love story I have been wanting to see play out forever. So happy for you Jenni and I know this is forever. Know that I will be there in spirit and you have my 100% support in your life and in your love for Mike. Can't wait to see pictures!!"

from Mindy, my best friend from college who is coming in from Chicago:
"first off, I just wanted to tell you, you know I wouldn't miss your wedding for anything! I am so happy that you are happy, in love and starting a new chapter in life. I can't wait to meet your new family, husband and see the kiddos! I am so SO SO happy for you doll! Can't wait to see you, watch you become Mrs. Roe and cheer you on into your wonderful new life.
Love you lots."

from Tiff, my friend and coworker from two different jobs!:
"Please know how excited and happy I am for you and Mike. You two make me smile and its so great to see you happy. You deserve it so much!"


from my dear, dear friend Stephanie, who has been a friend to me through sooooooooo much, all through long distance! She is actually related to Mike Unrau and has remained a loyal and tender friend through the tumultuous last year and a half. I love her to pieces. Can't say enough about her angelic heart. Truly, she must be an angel on earth. Love her. :

"I have to say, after reading this, I am sitting here, in tears.....so beautiful, how you wrote what God does with us!
and so TRUE.
It is truely a beautiful thing, when HE is the one who resucues us from the ashes!!
Tears also, over how in love you are and how perfect it all is NOW....thru all the heartbreak and hurt....NOW you can see.....just WOW.

You know, choosing to remain your friend "thru it all" was actually NOT a difficult choice for me. I felt that over the years before it all became clear, that I got to know YOU, the woman's heart within, the you that you probably didn't show to everyone....and I knew in my heart that you were worth keeping as a friend....and yes, I actually have been made to justify my choice to remain your friend....I've also had to say that "I do not think that is entirely true, and please do not go around saying THAT, you do NOT KNOW". uggg. So awful! the gossip is just horrible and sad, and sooo unchristian. So instead, I just pray for them, and just don't say much. I'm very excited for you to open this new chapter of your life, and to find happiness!! I can't even tell you how glad for you I am!

I can't wait to see your wedding pix and see your joy!
Know I'll be praying for you.....and thinking of you as you go forth!

I love you too friend!"

These are just some of those sweet words and friendships. We will share more. But for tonight, well, now morning, I must get my butt to bed as I have an insanely busy but fun weekend ahead of me! Starting tomorrow!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

5 Days and Counting...



In just a short 5 days Mike and I are getting married! October 9, 2010 will be the day we finally get to marry each other, after waiting for so long.

Our plan was to have our whole story written before our wedding day, so we could start fresh afterwards. Obviously with 4 children, a job and full time college, we didn't quite find the time to blog all of it yet. But it is coming! Slowly but surely. We will pick up where we left off after we get back from Hawaii and life resumes to normal again! This is something I journaled the other night.

"To my love,

This is the most important day of our life together. Not only because we are marrying each other, but because we have waited for 16 years to see this union, to experience the day where our lives become one...the life we have longed for, hoped and prayed for and dreamed about.

At 14 years old I met a boy that I knew in my young and childish heart I was going to marry. All the feelings inside me were very complex yet strong and they all led to my heart completely diving headfirst into love for this boy named Mike Roe. Everyone around me told me I was crazy and that I couldn't possibly know what love is at 15 years old. But I argued that I knew this boy, I knew his kind and gentle, loving heart. I knew the thoughtful and generous person that I experienced. If my feelings for him were not love then I would never know what love is.

15 years passed and we both went on to live seperate lives, finding our own versions of what love meant to us at the time. As always, along with the unfulfilled love comes hurt and heartache.

But then, through the hands of God and circumstances out of our own control, He brought us back together. I immediately fell back in love with the boy I fell in love with so long ago. But now he wasn't a boy, he was a man. He is a man that has lived through his own hurts and tragedies and has come out of those with a strong, wise and pure heart. He is a man that loves his children and family deeply and selflessly, who will protect them and provide for them, no matter the cost to him. He is a man that loves me beyond what I had ever hoped for, dreamed for, and begged God for. He loves me for who I am, which in turn has given me the freedom to embrace myself and love who I am as well. He loves me with abandon, passionately and purely. He has become my best friend, my love and my companion. Everyday with him is magical simply because he is by my side. Not only has his example taught me how to love better, to love selflessly and unconditionally, but to also live in joy and in laughter, to live in the everyday moments that make our family so special, to embrace the moments that matter and let go of the ones that don't.

When I think back to the people that told me 16 years ago that I didn't know what love was, I want to tell them all how wrong they were. I loved him then and I love him even more now. And I know that the love we share that started our story 16 years ago will continue to guide us, strengthen us and bind us together for eternity. God has orchestrated our incredible love story and I know this day is just the beginning. I can't wait to see what He has in store for Mike and I and our wonderful new family; Michael, Riley, Daniel and Hayden.

To my dear Mike: my life, my love, my best friend, my soul mate and soon-to-be husband, I love you."